“I am inspired by my experiences and emotions to want to express brief moments in time so I can share them with others. I am inspired by the life around me, the infinite colours, textures and surfaces that I see in nature. I want to understand .. what is life? What is it that makes this complexity? How do things come into being? From seed to flower to fruit… from birth to birthing to rebirth… Everything incarnates everything evolves and becomes more. How do we do this? How do intangible ideas become tangible? What is the first cause??? What is the process of becoming? I still ask so many questions as I still have a child’s wonder…. Still asking… Daddy why?
I learned early on as a child that when I drew, I became one with what I was focusing on. I had to – in order to understand how it was made. It was a way to calm myself and allow myself to enter the subject and be inside it… See it from that view. I still do that. Somehow, I merge into a larger energy and loose my sense of individuality for a while. Becoming one with my focus. It is a beautiful place to dwell. It is like a focused daydream. All else falling away while one small aspect becomes like a blossoming flower. I am not the flower but I am experiencing with it somehow. This is why I am compelled to make art. I am drawn to experience this oneness and sense of flow over and over. It is not always accessible or easily achieved but when I am inside this creative realm, it is pure joy and it is my reason for being.
The art I am doing now is a hybrid of all my creative experiences, honed into a ‘pattern of creating’. Like a ritual. I take long walks in nature. I journal every morning. I ask myself questions like what am I feeling right now? What do I feel about that specific subject in my mind? How do I feel while I am in nature… Or how do I feel as I am watching that crow watch me…. Are there any good metaphors in this moment that help me understand my self and my present experience better? Is this something that will help me grow deeper in my connection with life energy, the source energy? I think in images first then find words or symbols or more images. Then I feel it in colour and texture and make little thumbnail sketches that would not look like anything special to anyone else… it is like shorthand in images. I gather plants leaves, and branches and feathers as a talisman to hold the energy until I get to my studio. I impress these objects to transfer the memory of the experience into the plaster. It is a recollection and a launching place for more.
I am an avid science documentary lover. I am a spiritual seeker. I like being a layperson who can view all the various philosophies on life from the outside. It gives me great freedom to choose what I wish to learn next with out too many encumbrances.
I see it all like a big smorgasbord spread out for me to learn from. Each piece I savour and when I am ready I reach for more. I have come to understand that in its own time, one thing leads to another and it is a beautiful unfolding. I keep inquiring. My inquiring mind wants to know more. So I know I am never done.”